Lately: I'm still here

These last few weeks.. I've made some mistakes and have encountered little bits of physical adversity that drive me down. Little things, out of the blue but none the less preventable. Life or luck is calling out my weak spots, and hopefully running out of them as well.

Truthfully I feel far from the best I've felt about my life. I'm watching video's of skiers I aspire to be like and it's hard to comprehend rising to that level, even I'm doing my own style and not theirs. In this gap between the dreamer and the accomplished I sit, a lot of the time it’s near the bottom. 

So I sit, attempting to think of philosophies that will get me there. But there are no philosophies that will do that. I really don't know what will make me successful. We all want more money, better things, and more fans of an imaginary ego. But as much time as I spend thinking heavily about a life that's not mine, it won't do anything. It might just make me unhappier.

I'm not hopeless though.

 I benched my weight yesterday (repped it actually), Even though I haven't done a bench press in over a year. How can I feel hopeless when I can do that? You know what else I can do? 

Stand on one foot. See I 'll do it right now. 

Awesome! other foot?

Wow, what a day! I'm going to go get sushi!

Lately: Had some fun today

Skied Blackcomb for the first time this season today. All by myself. Upon arrival, I saw Crystal and the aerials jump glowing in the sun and I had to shred it. Did the traverse and boot back to the lower road about four or five times. Packed out a little run way and threw some three's off the aerials jump after shredding the fresh patch above. I got an decent left leading safety three off a road as well (decent as in it mirrored my right three's). All in all not a bad day, boots still suck but I guess I can still do tricks ok.

Guerrilla take off. I had to ski on bushes to get here.

Lately: Things are still slow

I haven't felt to good lately about skiing. I got a new pair of boots and they've proved awful so far. I have a small amount of faith that they'll work out. I have a really committed bootfitter and I think we may have made some major progress today. Still though, I haven't really been skiing. Just shuffling down the hill and feeling sorry for myself. The best moments of the day were had while hiking up peak chair because the pain was alleviated when I was leaning on the toes. Damn. I'd rather ride around with that broken hand than ski with these deformed pieces of plastic. I hope we can refine them to become the best boot ever. I don't think that that's to much to ask for. Here's too tomorrow.

This Season

I don't have much to say tonight. I broke my hand a week ago today. It feels a lot better and I'm gonna go shred tomorrow.  I got two days of skiing in before that incident. We'll see how this season goes.